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thequeensown) wrote2011-08-27 08:05 am
thequeensown) wrote2011-08-27 08:05 am
6th Sending [Audio]
[Things have been fairly calm and quiet around the Keep of late, but a recent post by Isabella has brought to mind something that has been put off for far too long.
Since the incident with Isabella, the bard has been going out of her way to avoid the Herald in every way possible. Talia understood this .. to a point.
Too much could happen in a days' time to leave such partings unmended and she was not one to enjoy bad blood by any means; though sometimes there was naught to be done.
Talia knew tat Isabella might be slow to reach out to her, so she would reach out to the younger woman first. Her voice is soft and her tone even as she speaks.]
Isabella .. I know you might rather not, but I would deem to speak with you at a place of your choosing if you've the time.
Since the incident with Isabella, the bard has been going out of her way to avoid the Herald in every way possible. Talia understood this .. to a point.
Too much could happen in a days' time to leave such partings unmended and she was not one to enjoy bad blood by any means; though sometimes there was naught to be done.
Talia knew tat Isabella might be slow to reach out to her, so she would reach out to the younger woman first. Her voice is soft and her tone even as she speaks.]
Isabella .. I know you might rather not, but I would deem to speak with you at a place of your choosing if you've the time.
not a comment.
still not a comment.
this isn't a comment either!
LOOK AT THESE AMAZING NOT HERE COMMENTS! :O
Re: still not a comment.//ooc
Also 8D
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The bard hasn't harbored an ill will for years. Not like this. She's actually mad. It hadn't gone away and it's been festering all this time, so that when she takes the time to think on it and meditate it makes her even more upset.
Still, perhaps Talia had something of importance to say.
The bard's reply is extremely monotone. ]
The Green. In a bell's time.
[She is not happy. Not happy at all.]
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When the time comes, it's off to the Green she goes. She'll be waiting there, leaning against the rail of the fence patiently.]
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The frown on her face could get stuck there if she continued on any longer. Her feathers showed her agitation, they were spiked in odd places and her good wing canted a bit to the side.]
Yes?
You wished to speak to me.
/long winded reply is GO
It was in her steps and posture, and most undeniably in her tone of voice.
Even so, her shields are lowered and the fear is also noticeable; that stings the most of all.
Talia had really done this to herself and had only herself to blame. She pushes up from the fence railing and turns to face Isabella as she approaches.]
I did, yes .. I ask you only for a few minutes of your time and then you can be as far away from me as you feel safely inclined to be.
[Her hazel gaze moves over the bard's face and she finally sighs, tucking an errant section of curls behind her ear.]
I owe you an apology of the most profuse nature. You have every right to be angry with me and I'm not expecting you to forgive me immediately, if at all.
I'm sorry I knocked you out .. I was doing so for your benefit, but in doing so I took away your choice and that is never okay. I could have simply advised, so the option could still have been yours. In making the choice for you, you were unable to visit and comfort a friend in need and I am eternally sorry for that ..
/ Have an equally long one in response!
While an apology helps in one way, it worsens her feelings in another.
Perhaps if the only party that had been involved in the incident was herself, she could forgive Talia. It had not though. Sollux had been left in the stocks alone, and Isabella still felt guilt over it, as though she could have prevented that from happening. She could not have though.
It had been decided for her.]
Easier to beg forgiveness than ask permission?
[The words were almost said in the same tone of voice she had used before, if you discounted the bitterness. The bard's feelings have festered for awhile, and the sigh makes it seems as though this was more a duty unfinished than something with meaning behind it.]
It bothers me most of all that... the deed had been done without a second thought. You had no right, Herald Talia. It was to no benefit of mine to keep me from that night. I fear that you would do it again, out of habit, perhaps, should a situation arise where you deem it necessary.
Dare I say, that you would feel the same as I, should our positions be reversed. Having one's freedom of choice taken away is not so easily forgiven as that.
How I adore prose and long comments! <3 These two, fffff .. *HUGS*
She shakes her head gently in response to Isabella's quip, maintaining her patience and decorum. The last thing she needed to do right now was get upset when it wasn't her place to. She had expected Isabella to be upset and she could hardly fault her for it at all.]
In the end? No, generally it is not and if you're being told 'no' it's for a damn good reason that someone should respect.
[She falls silent as Isabella begins to speak again, maintaining eye contact but having the good grace to flinch at not only the use of her title, but the fact that Isabella fears the same action again.]
You are correct .. I had no right and I only made things worse by making the choice that I made. I thought it was for the best, but I made the wrong decision and it is not something I can undo, nor is it something that will likely ever not effect the way you view me.
It was wrong of me to keep you from Sollux .. It was wrong of me not to give you the choice that any should be allowed and I am emphatically sorry. I would feel the exact same way as you if this had been done to me. I would feel wronged and I would feel cheated out of time that was mine to spend as I chose.
[She feels sick over this, having proved one of the things that had been said about her for years behind her back in court. She was a loose cannon that could do things people didn't wish. Was she really so untrustworthy? She'd proven herself to be at least in Isabella and Sollux's eyes and even one was too many.]
I thought I was acting in your best interest, but I was not and I am sorry .. I will not use my Gifts on you unless you choose for it to be done yourself. I had already promised this to Sollux, but it is best said to you as well ..
[She swallows around a knot in her throat, feeling sick in many ways.]
I have only ever wished to serve the people around me to the best of my abilities and I have failed .. I do not wish for that to ever happen again and would that it had never happened.
[She'd done exactly what had always been feared and murmured about her behind her back, and gravely injured a friendship in the process. She felt all the world as if she was the failure of a Herald she'd shown herself to be back on her training circuit with Kris.]
fff! XD ...this is what happens when bards fight?
For someone that makes her living as an object in motion, the stillness perhaps is the most damning aspect of how serious this conversation is.
Talia had something right; Isabella could not look upon the relationship in the same light again. What possibility there had been for a friendship, was gone in a flash and the charred remains of such being scattered to the winds.
When she does speak, it's quiet and bears the weight of a wound that is not solely Talia's doing but has been made fresh again.]
I have had quite enough of people taking my choices from me.
[Isabella isn't going to be so much of a doormat anymore.]
I can not forgive you, Talia. I just hope that you've learned and do not do this to someone else.
[But she doesn't believe it. Should Talia deem 'best interest' she doesn't see the Herald hesitating in using her powers for their 'benefit'. Then say sorry afterwords. If being Talia's friend meant the girl took it upon herself to act as some omnipotent guardian figure, then Isabella would opt out, thank you kindly.
If that's all Talia has to say the bard is going to leave. She feels rather sick too.
Likely, she's going to be sick in a minute.]