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[thequeensown]

[It has been a long, sleepless night for Talia. Her comm seems to activate mid-sentence. Her tone, typically so soft and warm, is quite obviously showing signs of her being on the verge of breaking.]

-n't know that. You can't know that.

Well, you know it too, little sparrow .. I'm just admitting it to myself.

Don't call me that. [There is anger in her tone, but strained.] They're not dead .. They're not ..

Who are you trying to convince, girl? ME? [The shadow laughs] They're dead. All of them. Not just your precious partner, Kris but your lifebonded. Dead, dead, dead. The Queen .. the Princess .. all the people of your world~

Stop .. please, just stop.

You know what that meeeeeeans, right? Come on, Queens Own .. What does it meaaaaan?

STOP. [She covers her ears, but it won't help. She chokes out a sob, shaking her head.]

He's dead too, isn't he Talia? [A menacing tone, full of laughter of the cruelest sort.] There's a reason you don't feel him in your mind anymore, little sparrow .. Admit it to yourself. You can suck down the rest of your ~poison~ and wallow once you admit it .. Deeeeeeeeeeeead.

[There is no answer this time, but a muffled sob. Oh, shadow, why you so cruel, baby?]

[Another burst of giggles, hiss-like and cold] Who heals the healer, empath?? So broken and unsure~ How can you even think to help others in this state? You seek to work others through their pain when you won't even accept your own? Shall I help, then? Hmmm? I can do that, you know.. help you accept your pain. Can you not even say his name? I'll say it for you then .. The dead one .. that meatsack is Rol-

STOP!!! Don't you dare! He's NOT dead. Don't you say that!!

[The voice is practically a purr as it continues without a beat] -an .. Rolan .. Rolan RolanRolan. You horse is dead, healer ..

[Muffled sobs can be heard under the hiss-like laughter and it all cuts off after a moment.]


[OOC: Responses might be slightly delayed due to work and a Disneyland weekend. Back tagging is fine and I'll get on responses asap. :) ]

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Um if you go to disneyland you have to visit me

[ttlynotawizard.livejournal.com]

Miss Talia?

You work there? :O We're trying to see if we'll be able to go tomorrow~

[thequeensown]

[There will be a few moments before you get a response, Remy dear, as she is trying to get a hold of herself. When she does, her voice is thick, but she sounds like she's trying at least.]

Here, Remy ..

[Her shadow has another quip, the darling thing it is.] Another man, Talia? Tsssk .. so many men in your life that are not your lifebonded .. Herald Ashkevron mourned when his died .. they alllll mourn when they die and yet you do not. Tssk .. so cold, little sparrow..

[Strained doesn't begin to describe her tone.]

I cannot silence it .. I am sorry..

[She knew others were experiencing the same, but it was horrid and deserving of an apology.]

Sorry sorry, always sorry.

my phone's being wonky with lj. pm me or im me later

[ttlynotawizard.livejournal.com]

Ignore it, miss Talia. Mine and Vanyel's were particularly mean as well. You're only nice to her because of Vanyel, right?

*sent*

[thequeensown]

[Knowing Vanyel's past as she does ..]

I can only imagine .. 'mean' however, does not begin to describe it.

It's the only reason anyone likes you, you know .. Herald Vanyel .. and your tricky mind Gifts. Always worried you do things .. worried you use it wrong .. maybe you dooo. [A delighted round of giggling.]

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[ttlynotawizard.livejournal.com]

It'll be all right. It'll go away soon. Just stay strong.

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[thequeensown]

[Have a dry laugh, it'll sound just a tiiiiiiny bit strained.]

I shall try my best, Remy ..

It won't be good enough, Herald .. it will never be enough.

[ntjstapwn]

They can't last very long. I think there may be ear plugs in the bazaar.

Sorry, had no net for two days :| [audio]

[thequeensown]

[Oh, hai, Marco.]

I appreciate the notice, Marco .. I think they might be worth investing in.

As if earplugs will make my words any less true .. you won't need to hear me to think about what I'm saying, you know..

[audio] s'ok, i figured it'd be awhile from the ooc note

[ntjstapwn]

*The shadow does have a point, though...*

Or you can try to drown it out or distract yourself, I guess.

[audio] <3 *is exhausted, yo*

[thequeensown]

[Yeah, pesky thing that is does have a point and a rather good one. Damnable thing. :| ]

Suggestions for either would be more than welcome, I assure you.

Oho! What suggestions to drown me out?! Can he keep you distracted enough to ignore the truth, hmm?

Re: [audio] same, but for different reasons

[ntjstapwn]

You could watch a movie in the libray and turn the sound way up.

*Assuming she's learned what a movie is.*

Or find some music or something. The arcade is rather loud.

[audio] *pats* And I had to work at 6am *dies*

[thequeensown]

[She pointedly ignores the shadow at the advising of, well, everyone; even if it's making valid points. She has heard of movies, although she has yet to take advantage of one.]

I have heard of movies, but haven't seen one yet .. both that and music are sorely tempting.

[The shadow giggles.] MUSIC?! Music! She thinks music will drown out the truuuuuth~ Music will not take away the fact that you are so horrendously unprepared to handle your Gifts. Silencing me will not negate the fact that toying with minds is ~wrong~, no matter how you twist your reasoning. So easy to explain away~

[Silence and then she speaks again.] I would feel badly about having either to a volume that might help, however ..

Re: [audio] 7 here, and barely slept last night

[ntjstapwn]

...toying with minds?

At this point, most people would probably thank you.

[audio] Oh geeze, stay strong!

[thequeensown]

[Talia would respond, but the shadow beats her to it, catching the murmured question with keen senses. Talia blanches as the shadow starts running with the bit firmly between its teeth.]

[If you could see it, it would surely look delighted at the the attention to its own words.] Oh indeed! Well, she does it all to ~help~ people, she says, but is it ever really a help to alter someones emotions? To feed thoughts into their own? Helping, they say .. Gifted they say ..

Stop .. It's not like tha-

The things she can do are frightening .. it's a little wonder the people of Valdemar treated her so warily. She deserved those looks of contempt and fear .. never respect. [It giggles again, ignoring Talia entirely.] Nearly killed her partner while they were trapped in a snowstorm together; simply with the force of her thoughts .. Herald .. Pfffaugh .. Unworthy. Undeserving of her Whites. If her Companion weren't dead, he'd surely repudiate her to see her now.

[Talia is trembling slightly now, vomit rising in the back of her throat.] It's not like that .. it was an accident .. I wasn't trained properly and my shields crumbled .. [Her voice strengthens a bit] And I would never misuse it ..

Wouldn't you? [Insert doubtful tone. It seems to be loving itself here.] Never, Queens Own? So much doubt in your head and heart .. constantly questioning yourself.

[Her voice is soft when she responds again, sounding closer to tears.] No! Why won't you believe that?! Why am I constantly defending my moral judgment and beliefs.. Why won't anyone believe that? I'm a good person ..

[Mocking, hiss like giggles.]

[audio] I always nap when I get home on first shift days :3

[ntjstapwn]

What...

*Marco's silent for a few moments. Is that why she was able to help him feel better the other night? Had she been poking around in his head? He'd have to be more careful.
Pity. He'd liked Talia.

When he speaks again, Marco's traces of hesitation and suspicion are gone. He sounds friendly and helpful again.*

I'm sure you've had your reasons. The shadows seem to like to exaggerate things.

[audio] Oh, that would be ~heaven~

[thequeensown]

[Oh, Marco .. I can only say that I'm glad she's closed off perhaps the tightest she ever has been, cause that would just kill her. :( The shadow would be rofl'ing .. which it might anyway! XD]

[It's voice is soft, loud enough for Talia and only the hint of sound that Marco might pick up.]Yes, yes .. you see how he falls so silent? He knoooooows, healer .. you have no hope of proving to this lot that you're any better than the worst of creatures beneath them. [It laughs cruelly.]

[Talia nods silently to Marco's words, the shadow's proclamation hitting every terrible button it can. She'd be lucky enough for a curt 'hello' at this point. But she deserved it, didn't she? She should have kept her mind to herself, no matter if she thought to help. Her words are soft when she speaks ..]

One man's help is another man's hurt .. [A bit louder then, pitched for Marco and tremulously strong considering how much she's hurting because of all this.] You're right, of course .. I shouldn't take it to heart ..

[audio] Its kinda needed since I work 5pm-midnight the next day

[ntjstapwn]

Just try your best to ignore it. It shouldn't last longer than a day or two.

[audio] Oh bleh!! :P

[thequeensown]

[Talia makes a small sound in the back of her throat that might be ascent, and the soft hiss-like chuckle of the shadow can be heard clearly.]

I will try my best, Marco .. thank you for your suggestions. I shall try them forthwith.

[Softly, and perhaps only audible to Talia herself.] Who heals the healer, empath .. who heals the healer?

[audio] 5pm-12 is my normal schedule, its just sundays that suck and have 1st shift for some reason

[ntjstapwn]

Good luck.